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Wednesday, October 08, 2008

forever goodbye dad!!~i will take good care of myself de..

4 oct 2008 is the day i have to get used to being not with my dad anymore :{ i used to have three beloved family member to support me whenever i need but now i left with two! everything happen so quick and sudden after saturday morning when the doctor call and say that my dad passed away! i was very sad as my dad didnt wait for us to say bye to him :{ from that morning till now i was so busy that i tend to forget thing easily.. my family and relative keep cried on and off..especially when is the last day of the wake and all of us know that we cant see my dad forever le, we just couldnt stop crying..

i tried to be strong and promised my dad that i will put a smile on my face and accompany him for his last journey! but whenever i look at my dad who is lying in the coffin i begin to feel so sad! i begin to think of the time we have together, the time that we eat pizza together, the time we talk non-stop and the time we watch tv and discuss about the tv drama! i never thought that my dad would die so early,never think he couldnt open his eye and couldnt breath anymore..i got this silly thought that both my parent are going to stay with me forever! :{

i kind of regret that i never for not saying to my dad i love him! i alway thought i got alot of time with him so i could say it next time! but my next time will not happen anymore! that alot of thing i regret for not doing it but all thing were too late to do it! i feel weird without my dad with me, i know i have to get used to it sooner or later

i just want to tell my dad: "you will forever remain in my heart and dad do not worry about me anymore! brother and i have grown up, we will know how to take care ourself :} so dad, just rest in peace! we really love you alot alot! thank you for supporting me and take such a good care for me in this 16 year! althought it feel like we do not spent alot of time with each other but i have alot of precious memory with you! once again, DAD, I LOVE YOU! i will remain cheerful de! the dream that you want me to fulfill, i would never forget! YOU ARE THE BEST FATHER THAT I EVER HAD!!! goodbye to my beloved father forever..

Author blogged at 7:41 AM